Evening's thoughts...

I'm sitting at home tonight, drinking some red wine, watching Steve cook us dinner, pondering what makes us happy in life. I'm blissfully writing these thoughts from the comfort and security of our cozy home. Foxy is laying next to our feet, like she normally does - Must be in the mix of things. It smells like mushrooms sauteed in butter, I almost want to eat the air, it smells so good. So what makes everything feel so perfect? There are so many people with beautiful homes and beautiful husbands and seemingly beautiful lives. They could be sitting at home drinking some wine, looking at their beautiful surroundings, but feeling utterly miserable, for any number of reasons. Why has this blessing been bestowed upon me, or you? And will it last forever? I figure, probably not, nothing ever does, but even on the days I feel like shit, I always feel hopeful and optimistic and I always know things will turn around. I can't say I've always felt that way. There have been times, earlier in my life, when I felt trapped and couldn't see a way out. A very dark place that seemed to get darker by the day. I'm pretty sure that is what makes me appreciate these moments, and makes me hold on to them that much tighter.

Tonight, I say a prayer for all my friends and my family. May we all be happy and feel safe and secure in our lives. And even when we feel the weight, of the pressures of life, coming down on us, may we know that there is always a way out of the shit hole and things WILL get better. And when things are wonderful, may we appreciate and hold on to those moments and make them last.

I love you all, and no, I'm not drunk...